I've sat myself down to try and write a blog post. We all know I've not been keeping up great the past week or two.
I haven't got a lot of ideas about what to write at the present moment.
There's definitely a few gardening topics I could write about: we've started more seeds, its almost time to transplant my pansy and pampas grass seedlings, and the plant cuttings I started are rooting well. But I haven't taken photos of many of those things during daylight this week.
Then there's my day yesterday, spent most of it shooting with a great friend, practicing posing each other, playing with our lighting setups, and trying different background ideas. That could definitely make a whole blog post.
Or I could write about my cross country skiing adventure on the weekend.
But I can feel there's something sitting under the surface that I need to talk about. Something that is more important than those other things. Possibly something thats going to be emotionally difficult to write about. Or maybe it won't be. Maybe it will be something really positive.
I haven't quite identified it yet, but I know it’s there. I know it’s one of those ideas that will bubble up when it is ready. If there's one thing I've learned about ideas, its that they appear only when they're ready, and if you're not ready for them, they'll pass you by.
I know that I have to sit with that simmering feeling, pay attention to it, don't smother it with distractions and busy-work, and be patient.
Being patient is excruciating for me.