Writing about myself


"Hello, hello
Let me tell you what it's like to be a zero, zero
Let me show you what it's like to always feel, feel
Like I’m empty and there's nothing really real, real
I'm looking for a way out

Hello, hello
Let me tell you what it's like to be a zero, zero
Let me show you what it's like to never feel, feel
Like I'm good enough for anything that's real, real
I'm looking for a way out"

I'm attempting to update my website. To add some of the missing elements that I've been avoiding working on. Things that will help people understand what I do, where I'm coming from, what training and experience I have, and a portfolio of my photography.

I've been avoiding this for several months because I find it extremely difficult to write about my own skills, experience, and expertise. I get a similar feeling when I'm writing a cover letter for job applications.

You probably know how this feels. We live in a society that has, until recently, said that talking about your accomplishments (especially if you identify as female) is arrogant and impolite.

This is something I've been trying to get over the anxiety and fear that this mindset brings up for me. I think a lot of people can identify with the lyrics above from Imagine Dragon's song Zero.

It is surreal to reflect on my accomplishments and think that maybe its OK to feel good about them. To be proud of how far I've come. I often have that quote "pride goeth before a fall" quote pop into my head when I'm feeling proud of accomplishments. Then I have to remind myself that I'm missing some context. The verse is actually more like: "pride goeth before destruction, and a haughty spirit before a fall." When you add haughty to the context it changes things. Pride combined with haughtiness does usually produce arrogance and ignorance.

I believe pride combined with humility and compassion is essential if you wish to share your passion with the world.

So, I'm trying to be compassionate to myself. I'm reflecting on where I've been and where I am now. And I'm trying to write something, and curate a collection of photos, that I feel represents me and my experience, with humility.

If our compassion doesn't include ourselves, how can we maintain compassion for the rest of the world?